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Brilliant and pure, a ribbon of light floating in the darkness.

I cannot recall the exact time when I first saw it. I only know sleep eluded me
during that time, and the light seemed to be a hallucination.

But night after night the light returned until I could deny its existence no longer.
So I accepted it, and the light led me through the darkness. And the things it
revealed to me. So many secrets and places beyond human space.

Soon the night was welcomed. For with it came the light and it always pleased me so.

Friends and family fell away. I only needed the light.

Everyone stopped talking to me. They would always disappear after trying to speak
to me. The village gradually slipped into abandonment. Only me and the light remained.

Everywhere is caked in filth, and other things. I feel different but I cannot say how.
No mirrors remain to reflect my visage, and no one remains to speak to me, leaving me
alone to assess my person, and I’m too far gone for that. Much of my life before the
light visited is merely a phantom. But, that’s fine. For each time the night comes,
the light shows me so many beautiful things.

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More Bloodborne inspired writing.

What I listened to as I wrote this:

If I’m being honest, a lot (if not all) of my motivation for learning Japanese has gone. But I still listen to these, out of habit if nothing else.

Learning Japanese. Part 2.

And it goes on. But I would like to think today represents a good change for me. As I mentioned before I have immense trouble in asking for help. Mainly because I’m shy and all that stuff. But as I am writing this, it’s about two minutes after I went over to Hi-Native and asked for help. And that’s a good thing. Because being stuck sucks just a little bit.

For reference, part one: https://kaneda18.wordpress.com/2016/12/04/learning-japanese/?iframe=true&theme_preview=true

As well as this, I have to acknowledge that I am going to make a crap ton of mistakes, a metric crap ton of mistakes quite frankly. And I’m normally bad at showing those mistakes. With that said, here’s some stuff I’ve tried to figure out. So without further or do, let’s see just how colossally stupid I really am.

今日も戦いでもなく大破する船が2隻。。。と。- The line preceding this is simply ごめんなさい as uttered by 阿武隈 (Abukuma) as she walks into 北上 (Kitakami). Honestly, I’m having trouble with も and でもなく in this sentence. I’ve got the kanji figured out. But not quite everything else. I’m guessing, maybe it’s something like –

Today’s battle won’t have serious damage for two ships.

Or is it something like Only one ship will see major damage today.

And as far as I can tell, と functions as a question particle at the end of a sentence.

But wait, there’s more mistakes on the way.

なんか北上さんが言うには どうにもならないらしの - What Kitakami san says is futile, it seems (?)

えっと 何がです - ehh/umm, what’s that/this?

なぜだか阿武隈ちゃんみてる - Why are you looking, Abukuma chan (?)

こうしないと気が済まないって – This doesn’t feel good (?)

ふふたりとも大丈夫ですか!? - Are you two okay!? (?)

It’s early right now (lots of false dawns) but if I keep this up, I’ll get used to being more open in regards to my studies, and hopefully get better with my Japanese and all that good stuff. And I might meet new people and stuff. And that seems nice.

じゃまたね

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Also, I tend to watch Japanese stuff on YouTube and stuff and so as I was typing this, I had this running in the background:

It’s hard enough translating things but I really can’t imagine doing it on national tv. So in that segment (about the mid point of that video) well done to those girls. Well bloody done.

Learning Japanese

こんにちは皆さん!私の名前はロバート。そして日本語を勉強しています。

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Think that’s right. Anyhoo, yes. I am learning Japanese. And I have been for about 3 years. Honestly it hasn’t gone as well as I would have liked it to. There’s reasons for this. One big thing is I get socially anxious at times and talking to people can be difficult, in a second language even more so. And I really find it hard to ask for help so I tend to plow on forward regardless, and then get frustrated with what I’m doing. And I can be self destructive and sometimes when I find my self getting good at something I’ll tear it all down.

So with this, I guess I’m trying to be open with this and maybe meet new people who are doing the same thing so I’m not going on my own and when I get stuck I can actually ask for help.

I should say I’ve been to Japan three times, and climbed Mount Fuji so I have a lot of love for the country and the people, because everyone was really nice to me.

And right now I’m trying to translate a manga. It’s a Kantai Collection manga, and it’s a collection of little stories. And I’m focusing on this one (I just really like Kitakami):

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Maybe I’m way over my station with this, but I like having a goal (guessing that comes from playing video games) and working through this seems like a good little goal. And I’ve made some progress (and I’ve learned some Japanese naval terms) and hopefully I’ll post things I do on here fairly regularly. I’ll try to get into that routine.

I guess that’s about it for now.

じゃまたね

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What I listened to as I wrote this:

Been getting into pro-wrestling again. Eddie was great.